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I fixed my old website, finally. I haven't had a lot of time to work on a lot of things due to lack of inspiration and lack of time so there aren't a lot of good drawings on there. Mostly old stuff, except for the Projects page, which is all new stuff.
I don't know. I'm feeling kind of sad lately. Very tired and uninspired and pressured when, really, there is hardly any pressure on me. I just downloaded a ton of new songs and I'm already completely over all of them. I hate it when this happens. I need new music!
I wish I was more productive artwise because I'd love to have my deviantart, sketch blog, and website full of beautiful things but none of my old stuff shows any kind of talent or originality.
I think I need to find myself and my style in my art. Start over, maybe?
That's probably it.
Except I don't know where to start. Just begin to experiment?
I really don't like how lazy I am when it comes to coloring. I always plan to shade things very intricately and I end up doing as little details as possible.
I'm on a crisis. Mentally and emotionally, I think. Let's add physically as well, because it could be better too.

I think I'm pressuring myself to be perfect because it feels like college is so close by and I'm terribly insecure in almost every possible aspect.
Also, the art teacher at my school is ridiculously annoying. She gives me absolutely no constructive criticism. It's like she has ADD. She'll start saying things as if she's thinking out loud, but she's talking to you.
And I asked her, specifically, if it needed anything, if it was a good idea, etc and she started saying something about bringing in some random ass book. WHAT?

She stresses me out.
I can't imagine what it'll be like when she teaches AP art next year.
I'll become suicidal.

Naw, I'm sure I'll survive. At least I'll have an AP credit to show all the art colleges I apply to. That's my primary focus. I WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE!