On Vacation not so much

I can't believe I posted my last entry only two months ago. It feels like it's been ages since then.
Okay, quick recap:

• Junior year officially ended last Wednesday for me.
• I got excellent grades!
• I wrote a new outline for a brand new novel. Decided the unicorn idea was done. No title yet. (I have a feeling about this one!)
• I got a tegakie account, became obsessed and then toned it down a bit. I still like drawing there cuz its so laid back and it helps me relax.
  
• I'm drawing a little more now
• I'm going back to school tomorrow to get Geometry done and out of the way.
  
• I'M GOING TO THE PRE-COLLEGE PROGRAM AT CCA (California College of the Arts) in Oakland this summer. This one better happen cuz we already paid for it.
  
• I went to visit my family in Mexico this weekend. Just got back last night.
  

And that's pretty much it. I'm happy now. I don't feel as weird and stressed out as I did when i wrote that last entry. I kind of re-invented myself in tegakie, making a new style that I only use when drawing there. It's a more fun, laid-back style. Also, I've become very interested in pretty much anything from the 20's to the 50's (including people, books, history, moves, fashion etc...). And I kind of like experimenting with fashion from the late 1800's and early 1900's as well.
Once again I came across a bunch of new songs and am now pretty over them.
I still really like them, I just want some new stuff to take a break from the not-so-new stuff I keep listening to.
I'm glad I'm taking the second semester of Geometry over the summer. It lasts three weeks and a half, but my sister and I are going to the pre-college program two weeks after that so I'll do something fun after something relatively dull.
I hope everything goes well this summer and everyone else has a great summer, too!

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I fixed my old website, finally. I haven't had a lot of time to work on a lot of things due to lack of inspiration and lack of time so there aren't a lot of good drawings on there. Mostly old stuff, except for the Projects page, which is all new stuff.
I don't know. I'm feeling kind of sad lately. Very tired and uninspired and pressured when, really, there is hardly any pressure on me. I just downloaded a ton of new songs and I'm already completely over all of them. I hate it when this happens. I need new music!
I wish I was more productive artwise because I'd love to have my deviantart, sketch blog, and website full of beautiful things but none of my old stuff shows any kind of talent or originality.
I think I need to find myself and my style in my art. Start over, maybe?
That's probably it.
Except I don't know where to start. Just begin to experiment?
I really don't like how lazy I am when it comes to coloring. I always plan to shade things very intricately and I end up doing as little details as possible.
I'm on a crisis. Mentally and emotionally, I think. Let's add physically as well, because it could be better too.

I think I'm pressuring myself to be perfect because it feels like college is so close by and I'm terribly insecure in almost every possible aspect.
Also, the art teacher at my school is ridiculously annoying. She gives me absolutely no constructive criticism. It's like she has ADD. She'll start saying things as if she's thinking out loud, but she's talking to you.
And I asked her, specifically, if it needed anything, if it was a good idea, etc and she started saying something about bringing in some random ass book. WHAT?

She stresses me out.
I can't imagine what it'll be like when she teaches AP art next year.
I'll become suicidal.

Naw, I'm sure I'll survive. At least I'll have an AP credit to show all the art colleges I apply to. That's my primary focus. I WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE!

Death

I'm not going to San Francisco.
I'm poor.
I want to die.

SHOT

Dear Carolina,

We are excited that you have chosen to join us on a special tour of our School of Illustration and a tour of Housing. During your visit you will see why top art and design companies recruit Academy of Art University, San Francisco (AAU) students. There is no other technical facility or curriculum like ours in the country!

OMFG I'M GOING TO SAN FRANCISCO ON THURSDAY!!!!!

LOL

Omg it's been such a long time since the last time I wrote on here. So it's '08 now. yay. Ok, a quick recap from the last post to now, ready? GO:

1. I haven't written a thing since the last post.

2. I've decided (with some help) that the last draft of my book is shit and I need to completely re-write the whole thing.

3. I've decided I'm going to major in illustration.

4. No, I'm not going to stop writing (why would I?)

5. One of my favorite teachers kind of commissioned my sister and me to illustrate a book he wrote (it sucks that I haven't been inspired to draw anything yet), but we're not really getting paid for it. (we will if it does well when he publishes it).

6. I'm going to try to get into AP art next year to help me prepare for college and also to help me practice different types of illustration.

7. I'm doing REALLY well in school!

8. I read a really good book called The Right Address.

9. I'm going to San Francisco this long weekend(Rodeo break) to visit one of my top schools, The Academy of Art University with my mom and sister.

10. I've started using livejournal more often than blogger (sorry!), I'll try to keep both balanced.

11. I'm going to have a new nephew! I'm fighting to have him named Adrian since my aunt and uncle don't like Sebastian because it has some annoying nicknames in spanish. (We would've named him Isabel if it had been a girl).

12. I got a new red Gateway laptop and my own Bamboo Fun pen tablet!!

13. I'm getting a new desk and I'll get to re-decorate my room and buy tons of things we're missing for our kitchen (I love looking at blenders and forks and apple peelers at Kohls)

14. I'm still really weird .

15. I plan to turn my page into an art website again, just as soon as I get some good art done and maybe even upgrading it so it doesn't have any stupid google advertisements around it.

16. LOL and I still don't have my permit.

17. Oh! and I'm past Algebra and on to Geometry. I'm taking the second semester during the summer so that I don't have to take it during my Senior year next year.

18. I plan to let my hair grow out all summer because it's really short right now and I can straighten it and not wash it for a couple of days, but I'll have two PE classes during the same semester next year so I can't be straightening it everyday, that's just ridiculous, so I'll let it grow long enough to wear a ponytail and then maybe cut it short again after that semester is over.

19. You Picked Me by A Fine Frenzy is my new musical obsession. Let's see how long this one will last.

20. AND I have a new red iPod nano because some dumbass stole my lovely old iPod video during ropes last semester. At least I helped the Africans.


yay!